Isn’t there so much bloody pressure nowadays? Pressure to look good, pressure to do good, pressure to succeed, pressure to conform at school, pressure to conform in our jobs, pressure to be the perfect mother, pressure to be the perfect partner. So much God, damn pressure. So much pressure that we forget where our true gifts lie. You do know where they lie don’t you? Your true gifts are in your individuality not your conformity!!
Your true gifts are in the things that make you uniquely you. But here is the sad part this is usually the thing that most scares you about yourself. Usually the thing that makes you most paranoid. Usually the thing that you were told by society to change about yourself. Yes that thing, you got it, that hurt right there.
Do you want to know what mine is? Mine is being too loud, talking too much. At school it was the thing that I was always criticised for. Always told off and told to change. So much so that it became the thing that I most hated about myself but the one thing that I couldn’t change. No matter how hard I tried my mouth just wouldn’t shut up and things were out of it before I even realised what the hell I was saying. And then I would cringe, thinking that I had done something wrong and that other’s would not like me for it, so I would try and be quieter but with this came a false sense of self that other’s could detect and that made me miserable.
I used to think that misery and self loathing came from talking too much but now I realise that was so far from the truth. That misery came from the thought that what and who I was was somehow flawed. That it was my thought about myself that was wrong not me. So instead of looking at my chattiness as something that needed to be changed, I embraced it. I realised that I could use it and bring light to others. And as I embraced my own gift, my own being, the part of me that made me so uniquely me, with that my energy changed, instead of it being all over the place and slightly manic, with that love for myself I became more centred and balanced. Doors started to open for me, opportunities that needed my talents started to appear. As I started to love my friendly, open hearted, smiling, bubbly personality, other’s started to light up in my presence. Why? Because they could feel my authenticity. They could feel that was who I am, naturally and unashamed.
Now I am not suggesting that you should all become loud and chatty, what a noisy world that would be. What the world needs is variety, what the world needs is your true gift, the world needs you to love yourself as you are. People who are quiet and shy and don’t do well in crowds are often the most genuine and loving people. I feel warm and comforted in their presence and they give you their undivided attention, this make other’s feel loved and cared for.
I now know who I am and what my gifts are to the world. I am fire, I am light, I ignite people. You can’t tell a fire to stop blazing. Sometimes my fire blazes bright and sparks other’s, sometimes it is a warm glow that is comforting and relaxing. I am reminded by the wonderful Marianne Williamson quote about our deepest fear, I urge you to read and re-read it but for now I will share a small part;
“We are all meant to shine as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others”
What is your light? What gifts can you shine on this world? Please love yourself for them and share them with other’s unashamed and without apology xx
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